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Sitting here, so downhearted

Looking out, for something for years

Trust in friends, fading away
No one to share feelings with but, my blog.

In this wonderful world, filled with beautiful panorama

Your smile, always brightens my day
Unfortunately, you don't smile for me

I cry, just cry.

Warmness 18th Birthday

Yeah, I turned 18th. This is my second time of celebrating my birthday with my friend. I'm happy that Soh Ling bring me to eat Donut. My very first time eating there, J.Co Donuts & Coffee at Sunway Pyramid. Out of all donuts, I chose donut with strawberry since it's so attractive to me. It's so delicious and so sweet that it touches me deep down my heart. Somehow, I've never get to feel this kind of feeling from a friend all this while. Somehow, I just get to feel this warmness. I'll never feel alone again having her by my side. It's great to have a friend like her. Really. Walking, laughing, loving, joking, smiling, teasing. I feel a sort of sadness but, I don't want to cry out loud. Somehow, I just need to pretend that I'm alright. I don't have any wish. Just a wish that I've been wishing since I'm small. I fantasize. And, the feeling of doubt just disappeared. The scent. Just, gone. Breeze. You broke up all the walls in my head. With all my heart, I thank you, Soh Ling.

What A Week

Sigh, sigh and just can't stop sigh-ing! Everytime when I did my best and something will happen after that. I handle it properly, colour it carefully, protecting it using layout pad from getting dirty. It took me almost a week to do that A2 Portrait with weird design and, water poured on it is what I get in the end. As for Finished Art, I did my best for the measurement and, redo is what I get in the end. I've done two diamond box previously before I submit the latest one and, redo is what I get in the end. As for History of Art and Design, I did a lot of research on it, watching the video so many times since I don't get the point of the movie, electricity down is what I get in the end. I just feel like crying when the water poured on my A2 watercolour paper. I guess there's no time for me to buy a new watercolour paper and draw it out and colour it out by Thursday. Guess I'll just cover the dirt for the sake of my Design Class tomorrow. I've gone through so many things in this situation. Sometimes, I ponder. Why is it so hard for me to achieve something? Failure is the highway to success? Sigh, I just can't stop sigh-ing. I'm not going to sit there and cry and do nothing. I guess it's no use crying over split milk. It's never been easy for me afterall.