Designer is a lonely job

I used to watch you from the back. Did you realised that we have not talked in awhile? full of awkwardness since my class started. sigh. I learned not to reveal my feelings even though 'cold' words came from their mouth. I realised there's no need for others to understand us because I can understnad myself much better than the others. Much more, I was silenlty and secretly in love with someone. Ever since I realised such thing will never exist, I gave up.