My Heart Melts

Having said that, Soh Ling offered to take me to eat ice cream, Baskin Robbins. I followed her tightly afraid that I'll get lost in the middle of nowhere. This is my very first time eating Baskin Robbins Ice Cream. Unarguably delicious. I don't mind what people are thinking since I always hide myself in my shell. The first line is just enough to melt my heart. My heart melts. I continued melting. Thank you, Soh Ling. Heals my cries.

College Life II

I’ve been meaning to post this for a while, but I got very busy with assignments. Preparing for presentation, design, research, colour wheel and so on. College Life II. I got to know some of them. Names. Nevertheless, the gap is very big between them. Talking is a problem for me because I don't know what to talk with, or what topic to start with. Maybe, it's all about topics. I thought by now I could get past this, but apparently it’s still an issue for me. I just don't have the guts to ask or talk to other people for some reason. Even I got to know some of them, I don't really sit with them since they already got their own gang. It is definitely not easy and never has been. I've got no idea what colour to use therefore, here I'm blogging. I feel safe for having Ms.Vivien beside me in Computer Lab. Just like the way I feel so safe when Soh Ling is with me. I just feel like talking to someone. But, who? Perhaps I should make an appointment with Ms.Lily to help me with my hard-to-understand-type of people. As what ZY said. Take initiative and solve the problems. I trust elder people thus, I always respect their sayings. I must make the best of it, whether it is dark or light. Life is what we make of it. Life is what we want it to be. We cannot control most of it, but we can change parts of it. It’s all in the attitude.

College Life

I've had another one of those days. I think I'm destined not to have friends. Somehow, I just feel empty when I'm inside the colorful building. I kind of have stress in my class in the fact that they're awesome in their artworks and very very very fluent in English. Experiencing User access denied on the first class, Block M is what I got. It just gave me a Wow! Luckily, the tutor of the Drawing 1 brought me up using her card. Language and Communication Skills class even gave me pressure when Ms.Pinky said that she expect something from me. Hey, I'm noob at everything. Sigh. All English-Speaking in the class gives me more pressure. I just feel the world is coming to an end for me. Sigh, I just can't stop sigh-ing. Somehow,I just don't have the guts to talk to other people. By the way, there's a guy in my class looks like my uncle. The way he talks, the way he walks, the way he dress-up and so on. How I wish if my uncle is with me all the time. Even if I've problems I can't share with anyone there unless I look for counselors. Chasing the bus and train is my daily routine. Tired. Okay, I know I'm stupid to think about them that they don't even know me anymore. At least, I have Soh Ling to talk with, and Jolin to message with. Yeah, I think this is my life until I graduate. Just like the world comes crashing down around me. I've got a horrible nightmare about my family yesterday. Like I said earlier I don't have time to be sick, at all. Somehow, I just feel like surviving in the middle of nowhere. I remember, I talked about being strong in an entry not long enough in my private blog stating that I am not strong enough, that I'm actually weak. I will improve, hopefully. No tears!