of Jog

Wake up so early to go Taman Rakyat jog. End up raining while we finish 1 round of walking and rushing to car. I should do more exercise to keep my body healthy! It's just a matter of time after all.

1900

Have you tried this? Please go and try. It is delicious.

You have yours, I have mine

We have different thinking. And I'm afraid that I will leave this world so early than I expected to be. I wonder when will my foot step on there. There. I came across with this line in twitter which is


“F.R.I.E.N.D.S = (F)ight for you. (R)espect you. (I)nvolve you. (E)ncourage you. (N)eed you. (D)eserve you. (S)ave you”


I wonder when will I find these friends of mine. Because it seems that I failed  because of my poor CGPA. Living in my own illusion. You have yours and I have mine.

Bad skill of mine

For certain reason, I think I would like to be closer with Awdrey,Xu Meng and Stefie. I can feel that they are a good person with good personalities- today. My heart skips when Awdrey help me with the tie. It's like how I felt safe having a friend with self-confidence. Don't worry, I won't fall in love with anyone anymore. That the reason, I know how to answer my own question since that day. Probably, I didn't really try to talk to them. If I were a boy, I will make Xu Meng mine. Xu Meng is very pretty! Not forgeting that she has a very good heart! It doesn't matter. Until I reach that point, I will start opening up again.


Just that it is not right now.

of Conversion

Weird, but true. Maybe, I shouldn't. Maybe, I should. No, I shouldn't. It's over. So, I shouldn't.

of Miki's Health

Miki fall sick.

rest well. ♥

of New Drama

ＡＫＢ４８ is going to release another new drama called 桜からの手紙。All of the senbatsu member is acting! I think I will watch it when semester break starts. Hope this drama is as great as マジスカ学園。

ともちん～♥

Bad Year?

Having Ryutaro falling sick, please recover soon! I wanna hear your rare voice from visual kei.
I don't wanna miss someone who can write good lyrics and songs like you because of guillain-barre syndrome. My life wouldn't be that interesting anymore without your song.
That's the source for me to accept the society i'm living in.
God bless you. ♥

Sunny

It was very sunny before it rains this afternoon. It seems like my little brother need some haircut. Well, furcut? Miki! ♥

Standing alone

I wonder why I'm growing to the side not to the top. I think I seriously need some diet. What a day. Didn't manage to do anything except some photography. They will fail me. I don't even know how to make a stop motion video and writing a style sheet. This is so stupid of me. Because life isn't fair that's why I'm not as clever and talented as the others. That's why in this world there's a categories for us to fall- whether it is rich, moderate, poor, slow learner, dumb and so on. For people who never got scolded stupid and dumb from a teacher- they will never understand how it feels. It's not jealousy of me but a journey of a slow learner. That the reason, I tried to learn myself instead of depending on people. I'm already 20 this year. I can't live long on this earth. This is so ridiculous but, this is the truth. People tends to hide it but never can run away from it.

Cross Dream

When I was small, I dreamed to be a Pilot. When I was in secondary, I dreamed to be a novelist that I can express my feeling through a story and my own imagination that i thought of or dream of. When I graduated from school, I went to The One Academy pursuing Multimedia course having interest in video to express my story in my own imagination and story. Now, my imagination is limited. That the reason, it has to be something that everyone like- something that will be judged. I live under the shadow of the poor society. I started writing lyrics that no one will hear. I'm such a loner. But, that's where I can find myself with peace, without anger, without emotion when it's all quiet and nobody around. I have to go through my life anyway. The future is bright- if only I believe it is bright. The love is powerful- if only I believe in it. It depends on me. My believe. Where should I go? As a child since that day, I'm matured thanks to my family. It's not a coincidence- it is a miracle. Even if I need to live with this unhealthy body of mine. Maybe God wants me to experience something my friends will never experience. I wonder if everything looked different the moment I fall asleep later.

Never felt that for so long.

Listening to this album makes my heart rest for that moment until it finished playing. I feel so relaxed now. I like listening to music alone. Not with anyone around me. I really wanted a mp3 player. But, mp3 player isn't as important as my sister's education. I shouldn't step into The One Academy. I made a mistake. As the saying goes, even if you give up, life goes on.
What a life. 

New Look of my baby

My blog finally! So tired. But. I'm happy! Although it might look ugly to you all. I will be updating more starting from now. Hopefully.

my percentage

Scripting = 1/100
html = 2/100
flash = 30/100
photoshop = 50/100
illustrator = 60/100
microsoft word = 70/100
talking = 30/100


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that is a lie

i've no talent.

same boat

At least I found someone true to me. We're on the same boat.

though it rains when it doesn't rain.

though it strike when it doesn't sound.

I can only keep it.

So, I'm hiding too much to myself.

This creative industry is so meaningless.

spoiled my face. That's why everyone stay away from me since i joined toa.

before this i was pretty! HAHA!

blaaaaaaa...

this is just a practice to make myself talk alot again.

I called this self entertaiment!

Somewhere

Hope I did a right decision today.

I hope I can understand photography better. T_T

gonna read some book regarding photograpghy again. yada yada yada.. T_T

Anyway, i'm going to spa this friday! ^_^

the places where you can really relax!

looking forward it. yay!

赤い糸

i often see this on ameba adds. Now i knew it ! really like it! T_T

beginner limited version A

Happy New BEGINNER~

Yuko version

mariko version

mayuyu (to) jurina version ^_^

YAY~ ^_^V

don't think i wil be watching it again when school starts. T_TV