２０１１ か。

2010 is a bad year!

hope next year is a good year.

one = wan (my surname)

haha!

i will turn on my smile for 2011.

hopefully can meet friends with same interest?

i can feel it!

it's going to be a great year.

i believe...

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of course it is not me. lol

See their skirt!

illustrations of the members on skirt.

this is so cool and pretty and nice and OH MY Acchan! T_T

they were dancing to exile's choo choo train!

after this year it will be 1 more year. YAY!

i will write them letter everyday. HAHA!

having friends like them sure is a great thing!

result

damn.

passed all subject.

gonna be unhappy for the whole semester next year.

the subject i'm proud of is S.E.A art & culture afterall.

studied and memorize everything in my mind like how i studied for spm.

gonna watch yyg concert to celebrate my grade.

101103

takamina out.












Star wars walking. oh my~

the mission is too funny!

This episode is so funny! oh my BINGO!

It is worth watching! please watch!

Pokemon mitai! lol

yuko why are you trying to follow the pose? oh my yuko~

some funny clips! OMAKB1

funny

miichan~ gomen ne~

but i always burst out laughing!

Christmas without snow

Ah, it's christmas!

Merry Christmas!

hoping for something good to happen

although it is impossible to happen.

haaha!

HAVE A NICE DAY!

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2 more minute, it's christmas!
















tomochin what are you doing to my captain! T_T















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gonna sleep like this on the cold concrete floor today.

good night!

blah

aH!


after for so many years, they finally make it to the top~

so happy for their hardwork

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I can't wait for the documentary! T_T

It will be good to purchase this as soon as this came out!

although i knew it is impossible.

sigh...

it is too expensive!

jang!

Jang~ Mei ling's recommendation on my skin.

I wish I have a healthy body afterall

people were so lucky. T_T

Feel like having a very long hair to be able to tie like my oshimen~

was wondering what hairstyle should i have next week.

thinking week.

random food

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I wanna eat buta nikumoyashi nabe!

anyone want to date me? T_T

I think my diet plan will fail again.

friends like you

I ♥ YOU!

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Mei Ling~

I will try to lose weight to get back to my 2009 self.

Can't blame me nah, I'm short.

otp finish

i always celebrate myself with RIVER PV

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by shouting RIVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR doing the river choreography

it's easy afterall.

i feel comfortable after shouting.

My mum once watch this and i ask her to shout with me

everything gone.












AND WATCH YOKOHAMA CONCERT 2010 DVD after completing a task

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is my habit

i don't like counting my friends because i always stopped at 6.

haha, what a number of friends.

RIVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR
















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アリガト！

peace

To be able to enjoy quiet life since semester break is wonderful !

Sleeping with window open wide,

so windy,

so cool,

this life is so......

ワンダフル！

Sunny

Ah, finally finish with family wash clothing, sweep floor, mop floor, and everything else.


and taking a long bath thinking of OH MY AKB

Feel so energetic now after doing this stuff everyday early in the morning instead of sleeping like a lazy person.


I'm part of the family thus,

Happy without having my mum do it now since i'm having my sem break.

yay~












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Gonna continue this sooner or later.

ganbareeeeeeeeeee~

Beginner limited version type B

yay!

I love every version!

the effect of type is like terminator!

OH MY AKB so cool!

I will think of you all more than 180 members till i fall asleep today. ♥

2 more year~

If only I'm in Japan, I will turn on the TV sit whole day infront of it and watch their tv shows and go to their weekly stage~

Dance version~

Maeda version!

Momi version~

my oshimen version~ kyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

Visual OTP

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JANG!

Treasure hunt resubmission.

I deleted my psd file so I have to draw everything again.

Been doing this stuff since friday.












TADA!

Heineken resubmission.

Thinking back, I didn't submit to server didn't I?

Ah, yin sian the lazy sheep.

some random thing to blah
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YIN SIAN so fat.so short. so round.

my TRADEMARK>> FAT SHORT ROUND ^_^ V

speaking of it, Miki is the same. Short leg, round body and fat! MIKI HI-5!

Desperate

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SANTA! Please make my wish come true!

Puccho

remember a few months ago I was keep talking about puccho?

and..... doing research where to buy them?

finally, I got to go to Pavilion and I got myself a PUCCHO yesterday!

didn't manage to collect every flavour of it. Only one flavour available. But....

I must admit I love this! Never tasted such good thing in my life!

Even the wrapper is decorated nicely with different design and dialog on it! (FROM THE CM)

I didn't throw the whole thing. I stick it on my inspiration book! YAY!

The most importantly is... it is promoted by akb48! yay!

It would be another 2 more year before I continue my study in Japan. Can't wait for that.

I'm having a bad life here whenver i go to college. damn.

But when i bite on it! OH MY AKB!!! IMAGE OF AKB48 APPEARING ONE BY ONE!

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I wanted to own akb48cho toy too! But i don't think it is in malaysia.

The campaign of promoting Puccho

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http://www.akb48cho.jp/#/index

The one who only love me truly

I am falling to my knees
I need You Lord to breathe in me
My prayer is still the same
My heart is calling out Your name

Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace

Rain down on me
Rain down on me
Here in Your presence I am free
Pour down like rain
Come and touch me again
Lord let Your presence fall on me

I’m longing just to see
Your power and Your majesty

Sweet anointing fill this place
I am found in Your embrace

Sweet anointing
Wash me over
Sweet anointing
Wash me over

会いたいよ。

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

だいじょうぶ　もう泣かないで　私は風　あなたを包んでいるよ

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

ありがとう　ずっと大好き　私は星　あなたを見守り続ける

あなたに出会えてよかった　本当に本当によかった

ここにもういれなくなっちゃった　もう行かなくちゃ　ホントゴメンね

私はもう一人で遠いところに行かなくちゃ

どこへ？って聞かないで　なんで？って聞かないで　ホントゴメンね

私はもうあなたのそばにいられなくなったの

いつもの散歩道　桜並木を抜けてゆき

よく遊んだ川面の上の　空の光る方へと

もう会えなくなるけど　寂しいけど　平気だよ

生まれてよかった　ホントよかった　あなたに出会ってよかった

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

だいじょうぶ　もう泣かないで　私は風　あなたを包んでいるよ

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

ありがとう　ずっと大好き　私は星　あなたを見守り続ける

あなたに出会えてよかった　本当に本当によかった

あなたの帰りを待つ午後　あなたの足音　何げないこと

私はそう、一番の喜びを知りました

あなたが話してくれたこと　一日のこと　いろいろなこと

私はそう、一番の悲しみも知りました

それはあなたの笑顔　あなたの涙　その優しさ

私の名を呼ぶ声　抱き締める腕　その温もり

もう触れられないけど　忘れないよ　幸せだよ

生まれてよかった　ホントよかった　あなたに出会ってよかった

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

だいじょうぶだよ　ここにいる　私は春　あなたを抱く空

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

ありがとう　ずっと大好き　私は鳥　あなたに歌い続ける

桜の舞う空の彼方　目を閉じれば心の中

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

いいんだよ　微笑んでごらん　私は花　あなたの指先の花

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

ありがとう　ずっと大好き　私は愛　あなたの胸に

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

だいじょうぶ　もう泣かないで　私は風　あなたを包んでいるよ

『さくら　さくら　会いたいよ　いやだ　君に今すぐ会いたいよ』

ありがとう　ずっと大好き　私は星　あなたを見守り続ける

あなたに出会えてよかった　本当に本当によかった

本当に本当によかった

小さな魔法

悲しみに負けないで

ひとりきり泣きそうになる
夜なんて　いくつもある
終わりのない　旅の途中
誰だって　夢見ている

いつも何かを信じて
そして何か失って
君を抱きしめた
流した涙の数は
優しさに変わってゆく　きっと

悲しみに負けないで
まっすぐに明日を見ていて
ひとりじゃない　誰もみんな
かなえる願いがある
明日の風はきっと
優しい香りをつれてくる
約束だよ　どんな時も
きっと君のそばにいる

言葉では言えないほど
募ってく想いがある
木枯らしに抱かれる夜は
切なさも強さにして

出会いはいつも突然
響く鐘の音のようにやってくる
君が手にした全てが
明日へつながればいい　だから

悲しみにサヨナラ
瞳閉じて　そして　笑って
忘れられない　思い出たち
少しずつ抱きしめて
たとえ遠く離れても
いつも君だけに祈るから
君が歩く路の上に
花が咲きますように

星空を見上げながら
見果てぬ夢追いかけて
いつか風になる
もっと自由に…

悲しみに負けないで
まっすぐに明日を見ていて
ひとりじゃない　誰もみんな
かなえる願いがある
会いたいと思うから
いつでも声が聴きたいから
過ぎ去ってゆく　季節に今
ありがとうと言えるよ…

Your Call

Quitting The One Academy

After this semester, I will take a long break.

I will not cause smart people trouble=they happy

I will not cause lecturer trouble=they more happy

Working.

Please e-mail to yinsian@gmail.com for your opinion on this issue.

Sea,

wave,

breeze,

bicycle,

hair blowing,

wooden house.

あーぁ...

How do people stay in this world so long?

Why do they stay?

WHY?

Now i have 2 options, work or study.

Sigh.

1.I set my computer screen to sepia screen.

2.I hate doing my assignment everyday.

3.Having no fun at all.

4. at least Plastic Tree new singles! yesh!

Understanding Myself

The good thing about this picture is they're different in colour and yet they can be so close. In my case, I live under a concept of we're not rich. Thus, the concept is people who're rich and poor. For myself, I love my current style. I'm matured because my situation that I've gone through a lot since I was very small. I have experience living with my family without a shelter unlike the others having toys or house to live at. But with a spanar, my Great Dad build everything. That is what I know. Even they doesn't know English, I'm still proud pf them. Knowing how to think, being humble is what my dad and mum used to tell us. In fact, I think too much or I'm just too sensitive. I don't know. I'm 19 this year. I've no way to walk on now. Life Brief Candle? Perhaps it is. Everytime I was left behind, walking alone and watch them talking and laughing. Even if you try to be closer with them, they still will leave you alone. Why not staying away from them? I thought of Yi Wern. The only one that I have ever known since you're the only one who walks side by side with me not leaving me alone. Like what Mei Ling did. Thinking of friends makes me sad. Thinking of classmate make me teared up while talking with Joe Jian today. I started to know myself. What I want now. If I doesn't have a family, I could have gave up my life since then. Leaving this materialistic and cruel world. I'm disappointed with myself. Watching and listening. Thought of losing you makes me feel so sad. People might say choose to be happy than sad. That’s a lie. I've learn to walk by myself through my journey of depression.

Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you
Do you ever wanna runaway?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more?
Before your life is over
Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With their big fake smiles and stupid lies
While deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels all right
You don't know what it's like
To be like me

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lied straight to your face
No one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay
Everybody always gave you what you wanted
Never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like (what it's like)

To be hurt
To feel lost
To be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around
To be on the edge of breaking down
And no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

Found this on ohtsuki-san blog. I don't own the copyright. This picture inspired me for my lately work. Pretty isn't?I wanna have a small house with nature around it. I wanted a bicycle instead of a car, I wanna feel the nature. I can live without Internet-world. I wanna to stay alone if I have to be alone. Recently, I have not talked to anyone that much. Pretty disappointed with myself. Not able to catch up with anyone or anything i learn lately. Instead I talked to my overseas friend. I used to talk to my sister till midnight on the bed. Since my sister hasn't been around with me, I felt more lonely. Last Thursday you came to house, you accompany me and stayed over the night with me. I somehow found out the reason behind it, over my friends. Thank you. Ying Chiet! Somehow, I feel more like myself whenever I'm with you. I'm so grateful God gave me you when I'm all alone by myself. Therefore here I am Dedicating 至少还有你 song by 林忆莲 for you, babe!

Definition of Friend

1. a person known well to another and regarded with liking, affection, and loyalty; an intimate
2. an acquaintance or associate
3. an ally in a fight or cause; supporter
4. a fellow member of a party, society, etc
5. a patron or supporter: a friend of the opera
6. be friends to be friendly (with)
7. make friends to become friendly (with)

credits: Dictionary.com

Unhealthy Brain of Mine

so it decided that I don't have a healthy brain. Perhaps it is.

What Hurts The Most - Rascall Flatts

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

True words from my heart I

Cried beside my mother, discussing about my course. I knew this will happened to me one day. Yes, I broke down again. Some probably already knew about me when I joke a lots and talks a lot which is rare for me to do so is actually not a good thing. Told my mum that I no longer can hold this anymore. Yes, I had few friends compare to the others; hundreds or millions. Couples are helping each other, friends with friends are helping each other. All I did was begging my friends. Shame on me. It's like begging people to teach you when people doesn't even have the mood to do so. I was destined not to have lots of friend. I admit that. I came from a not-so-rich background. It's only an illusion for them to see the surface of what they think of me. I have this on my mind that if I stopped studying, the money will go to my sis which she can get into sunway college, a BETTER college for BETTER FUTURE than me. Daddy and mummy told me not to stress over this little thing afraid that I'll commit suicide. They understand me a lot better than the others, I'm not an optimist. I admit that. I have been crying since primary to high school and now college. They knew me too well that I can't hide anything from them. I hate my friends. When you're good, they will come to you. When you're bad, they will leave you aside. Just like economy subject we learned from school, the rich will continue to be rich and the poor will remained poor. Same goes to friends. Mum once said in chinese that "they beat, they split, whatever-they-did, we don't attack" That's the fact. Soh Ling, it has been awhile since we last met. I really wanna talk to you- a lot. I'm a little envious of my friends which they had their friends ready and comfort them. I'm all by myself. But I'm used to it. First, I myself isn't happy with my classmate. Secondly, my skill and idea. It's uncountable. It's a fact that I'm a slow learner. You can't change that.

Flutee Sheet

I wanted someone to play this for me. KIKI! borrow me your flute! i wanna practice this song! T_T Joking. I will buy one when I'm rich.

Designer is a lonely job

I used to watch you from the back. Did you realised that we have not talked in awhile? full of awkwardness since my class started. sigh. I learned not to reveal my feelings even though 'cold' words came from their mouth. I realised there's no need for others to understand us because I can understnad myself much better than the others. Much more, I was silenlty and secretly in love with someone. Ever since I realised such thing will never exist, I gave up.

I'm willing...

I wanted everyone to be happy. I really wanted everyone to be happy. God, even if there's a need to take my life away, I'm willing to give it away. I don't want to go through this problem while I'm doing assignment. I can't go through harsh times all the times, everyday! Even if I need to die now, I'm willing to give it all away. God bless them.

figure warm up

Gonna continue this when i'm free

Sudden Tears

I was very tired upon coming back from far yesterday. But, i still need to complete my assignment in the middle of the night. I was being mad at my assignment that the reason, I don't know how to animate it using flash. When I entered the lab today, I felt nervous that I refused to show anyone my flash assignment. I asked the girl beside me to show me her work on the screen but, she refused. Now, I never wanted to believe in anyone. When my classmates' work was on the screen playing one by one, i blamed myself for being so stupid- doing stupid stuff. Their works are all great compare to mine. How I wish I was little bit smarter. I was a little bit too sensitive, how a friend of mine told me. I tried not to be that sensitive but, my tears couldn't hold back and start rolling down my cheeks. Not to say hate but dislike. When they say their works are nothing great and sucks. I felt heartache on my chest. They said their works are nothing great. Hello. How about mine? rubbish? Sick of those thing. Can't they just appreciate by saying thank you? I started to stay away from them. Never wanted to be close to them. I will stay close to myself. At least I won't get hurt by staying away from them. I guess I will fail this semester and join a friend of mine in the next semester. At least I have someone to talk to. My friends are just way too- you name it. Came back rushing for my computer graphic production procedure. As usual, I know nothing. I was mad at CGPP assignment that I signed out of my messenger while asking my classmates. I was pissed off then I cried staring at the assignment. I think I need some rest. I always wanted a close friend since I was in high school. But, I knew I will never had this dreams that I make a story based on my own dreams. Somehow, I realize I'm just not so into multimedia.

wondering

"yang pipih tidak akan datang melayang, yang bulat tidak akan datang bergolek"

some people just have to walk this way. Obviously, I was being envious of the others. I mean it. "All in one" packaging