NG SCENES! ハハハハハ

of Drama this semester

Still remember the famouse drama (Mother)? Mana Ashida is acting in this drama! I would recommend Marumo no okite! Sigh, I wish they will come up with the season 2! I wanna continue watching it! I'm not sure whether there is eng subtitles for this drama in youtube. If you really want to watch in youtube, you would need to type マルものおきて instead of marumo no okite. I just finished watching it today, and I salute both of them which is 7 years old for the acting skill. Love the way they film it! Full star! If you watch it carefully u will find scenes that been used in Hanazakari Kimitachi he remake. AW~ So warm this drama. Cried and laughed so much. SALUTE! Please go and watch. really worth it! Goonna continue with the other drama during semester break.

美しいですね。

いきなりですが、あなたの良いとこを10個言わせて下さい

1つ、ウソを隠しきれず顔に出るから 癒される
2つ、「大丈夫だよ」と囁く声に なんとかなるって気がする
3つ、頑固なくせに最後は謝るから ふきだす
4つ、親友達のことを話す笑顔に 愛しさ増す

5つ、ただそこにいるだけでみんな明るくなれるから 守りたくなる

君のこと 全部好き 全部好き 全部好き
何気なく過ぎ去ってゆく日々を
ずっと守り抜くチケットあるなら 握りしめて渡さない

いきなりですが、あなたの良いとこを10個言わせて下さい

6つ、大雑把だけどおいしい料理 喜ぶ顔で僕また太る
7つ、涙もろい素直な姿 心掴まれて手を伸ばす
8つ、さりげない気遣いが 誇らしくなる
9つ、先を見据える眼差しが 尊敬できて刺激的

10つ(とお)、見返りを求めない優しさに 心救われ前を向ける

君のこと 全部好き 全部好き 全部好き
何気なく過ぎ去ってゆく日々を
ずっと守り抜くチケットあるなら 誰の手にも渡さない

信じ抜く力をくれた人 笑うために涙も流すんだ
きっと きっと

君のこと 全部好き 全部好き 全部好き
何気なく過ぎ去ってゆく日々を
ずっと守り抜くチケットあるなら 握りしめて渡さない

何があっても 守りたい この想い 変わらない
君が君でいてくれるから
ずっとずっと その君の手を 握りしめて離さない

まだ見ぬ明日の扉を2人で選んで開けながら
(心和み、心震え、心揺れて、心打たれ)
君がこんな僕の名前を呼んでくれるから‥
(心叫び、心支え、心通じ)
僕はそんな君の名前を呼び立ち上がれるから‥
(心弾み、心踊り、心掴み)

愛してる

yusukeeee

of beautiful song with beautiful meaning

If you have your friends, appreciate it. There are not many of them who really thinks about you. AKB48, thanks! I almost forgotten i have harmonica with me. =)

Turning blue into yellow.

Dive into music world than my real life. That's better that way. AKB48 ♥~

I'm also a human

People used to say when you're in love whatever they do is lovely.
And so same goes for the opposite.
The moment you spoke;
I feel like singing;


There you go
You're always so right
It's all a big show
It's all about you

You think you know
What everyone needs
You always take time
To criticize me

It seems like everyday
I make mistakes
I just can't get it right
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

There you go
You never ask why
It's all a big lie
Whatever you do

You think you're special
But I know and I know and I know
And we know
That you're not

You're always there to point out my mistakes
And shove them in my face
It's like I'm the one
You love to hate
But not today

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down
Is gonna bring me down
You'll never bring me down

Don't tell me who I should be
And don't try to tell me what's right for me
Don't tell me what I should do
I don't wanna waste my time
I'll watch you fade away

So shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say today
Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up
Don't wanna hear it
Get out, get out, get out
Get out of my way
Step up, step up, step up
You'll never stop me
Nothing you say
Is gonna bring me down

Shut up, shut up, shut up

of Representation

Welcome to my Life
Do you ever feel like breaking down?
Do you ever feel out of place?
Like somehow you just don't belong
And no one understands you

Do you ever wanna run away?
Do you lock yourself in your room?
With the radio on, turned up so loud
That no one hears you screaming

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like, to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

Do you wanna be somebody else?
Are you sick of feeling so left out?
Are you desperate to find something more
Before your life is over?

Are you stuck inside a world you hate?
Are you sick of everyone around?
With the big fake smiles and stupid lies
Well deep inside you're bleeding

No you don't know what it's like
When nothing feels alright
You don't know what it's like to be like me

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked, when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like
Welcome to my life

No one ever lies straight to your face
And no one ever stabbed you in the back
You might think I'm happy but I'm not gonna be okay

Everybody always gave you what you wanted
You never had to work it was always there
You don't know what it's like, what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

To be hurt, to feel lost, to be left out in the dark
To be kicked when you're down
To feel like you've been pushed around

To be on the edge of breaking down
When no one's there to save you
No you don't know what it's like

Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life
Welcome to my life

My Principles

That's my way.. 

I've decided. 

Close my heart.

And look into it myself.

Your Perfections

You're looking for perfection while I'm looking for people who can accept just who they are.
You criticizes, complaining, blaming- you name it.
You're chasing after perfection. Say, image of yourself.
You are a Queen and I'm a little pawn chess pieces.
That describes everything.
Looking at you, then me.
Hold on to a time that stops-
I closed my heart.
No, I can't.
I'm sorry.

Lesser by year.

Left 4 of us.

Of Life

Before you, That's ok.
After you, LIFE.
Wallow. You can't understand.
Red. You splash all about that.
Black. Heartbroken.
Ignorant. I am.
You and me.
Melodramatic.
I say.

Out of the Blue

Can't wait for Acchan to be starred in the new version of Hana Kimi! >.<" I can't watch it here tho'. Damn. The only thing that make me happy.

of Direct Shot

Being shot at the last part of the song while doing this annoying frame. BANG!

Summary of Yin Sian

Jeans + Plain Tee + Plain Bag + Plain shoes + Plain phone =  Yin Sian.

I just prefer wearing this kind of things instead of complicated graphics. Been wearing like this for yearsssss

Don't say you know me when you know nothing at all.

of Suicide Song

It was meaningful. The movie was dull but actually if you really watch it and listens to it. It is very meaninful to me. I actually cried when the last part there when she sings the suicide song. Appreciate it a lot. I wonder if I were to sing it will I die that way.

of frustration

Can't access to my twitter. damn.

of gaming

Today I play this game called HARVEST MOON! Ah... so funny. I'm trying to make myself to learn kanji in this  japanese version. Not confident in my japanese anymore. lol

of shopping

I went shopping with mum and brother today! And, I bought a mini skirt and a purple shoe! It was great having shopping with my mum. I couldn't believe I wear a M size skirt. It is like. EHHHHHHHHH? Maybe that cutting is a little bit off. Seldom go that shop because it sell only S and M size!  HAHA! fat people like me hard to buy things.

of Spaaaa

Today I went to spa and as expected it was relaxing and comfortable! Awww- when it touches my face it felt so cold like ice cube that i almost fall asleep. I like the mask part! Haha! It took quite long today.Thank you for the hardwork!  (#^_^#)

of Majisuuuka

マジすか学園season 2 WAS GREAT! COOL! OMGAWD!!! It was cooler than season 1! Looking forward the next episode to air this week. I like the way they film it. wow! Rappapa has been rebuilt! The new team in episode 1 , team fondee is so funny. You will see the one who won the janken tournament last year in yoyogi concert appears! WOW. SKE48, Jurina finally acts in this season rather than being quiet in the previous season. YAY!














team fondee!~!!!!!

of fan girling

i was watching second day performance and then i accidentally saw atsumina moment! omgawd.... you're in a performance! concentrate! ♥ 33gb of this performance is way too... =.= anyway, the 2nd day didn't rain so it's clear enuf! but i prefer the one without raining. because the songs they performed is great!

Anyway, Plastic Tree released ammonite not long ago. it was great!

of disguise and laughter

of Amazarashi

Have you listened to their new album? It was great as always. These few days is quite busy. So tired. But, it is fun the way i spend the time. Because I never get the chance to do it every semester starts.



♥
Yin Sian

of Wanting

Kyaaaaaaaa~

of Ideal

As I said before.... I wanna make him MINE! I can feel it. Omgawd. Love every piece that he played. <3

Of Interview

So touching! Reminds me of my loneliness. I was writing my new song this holiday! It's going to be great piece for people like me. Anyway, I went for interview today. Just realised I need to update my traditional work. Hopefully, I get it since I'm lack of experience with the society. I'm very patient. That's not a problem. But, talking is a problem! Should have follow the Canon manager to his studio that time. GAHHHH >.<"

of Friends

You lied at my face and you thought I didn't know. Because I couldn't bear with your attitude towards people. If you were to ask me face to face, I will tell you I don't like you lying here and faking here and there in front of me because when we're so close and you lied at me. I won't go close to you anymore. Not even a 1%. That's why I hate having friends. Ending up being lied. being the last to know, being used, being tricked, being trusted so easily. If I didn't have that kind of friend at the first place I won't be that hurt. At least let myself alone handle it. Damn. Shouldn't have open to other people that much next time. And to you, if i didn't sound out doesn't mean that I know nothing.

of Black Swan

Went to watch black swan with Mei Ling. Shouldn't have bought that couple seat. The couple next to me is like omgawd keep hugging until the end of the movie. Anyway, see the hamster sleeping together so warm! Feel like being a hamster than a human. Maybe I'm evil as the black swan.

of Ideal

If i were to die, my wish is someone who can play this song for me. T_T

of Sleeping with song

关起满室不足的氧气

点着烟蒂回味你的呼吸

搜索脑里未完的龃龉

对着空气还击着你的问题

推辞每次真实的相聚

困着自己渴望着你的消息

沾沾自喜拒绝的魅力

不着痕迹享受着与你的距离

也许喜欢怀念你多于看见你

我也许喜欢想象你多于得到你

我关起满室不足的氧气点着烟蒂回味你的呼吸

散落一地断续的谜语

对着空气还击着你的问题

推辞每次真实的相聚

困着自己渴望着你的消息

翻来覆去甜蜜的话语

故作神秘延续着你的好奇

也许喜欢怀念你多于看见你

我也许喜欢想象你不需要抱着你

啊~~~啊~~~

也许喜欢怀念你多于看见你

我也许喜欢想象你受不了真一起啊~

of Opinions

I know I shouldn't. But, it is just too sudden. We're living in a world that everyone judges someone or something or whatever they sees with their eyes. If a girl is close with a girl, then they label them as lesbian. If a girl is close with a guy then they label them as boyfriend girlfriend and there's no wrong for them. If a boy is with the same gender then they label them as gay. World we are living in is full of lies. Untruthful. Naive is what they said to me. Because we are living in a world that everyone is hiding the truth behind their backs. What else can I expect from myself to somebody else unless I return to a normal condition where everyone can accept it. I'm confused by the words you said since that day. I just don't understand why everyone have to follow majority pace. This isn't fair and this isn't ourselves. If I were to follow the majority, I wouldn't want to be that. I wouldn't want to live anymore. Then I would wish for my disease to end my life earlier. I don't want to be a piece of chess that doesn't have any supporter. 

一 半

喝 酒  的 伴    一 起 看  电   影   的 伴
早  午 晚  餐  的 那 个 伴
朋   友  不 能   留  得 太  晚
明   天   要  上    班
唱    K 的 伴    一 起 去 旅 行   的 伴
听   懂   我 的 笑   话  的 伴
我 的 生    活    只  差  那 个 人  就  美  满

快   乐 剩    一 人  分  享      快   乐 就  只  剩    一 半
喝 一 碗  汤
心  怎  么 都  不 够  暖
这  张    被  单    这  张    睡   床  
再  舒  服 都  觉  得 太  宽 

没  人  分  享      幸   福 就  只  剩    一 半
就  算   把 日 子 都  填   满
节  日 却  提 醒   我 孤 单

没  有  想    法   有  想    法 又  能   怎  样
只  能   写  部 落  格 整    晚
几 个 留  言  安 慰  不 了     心  里 的 遗 憾
没  有  负 担    原   来  也 是  种    负 担
自 由  多  得 让   人  心  慌
你 羡   慕 我   那 要  不 要  跟  我 交   换 

快   乐 剩    一 人  分  享      快   乐 就  只  剩    一 半
喝 一 碗  汤
心  怎  么 都  不 够  暖
这  张    被  单    这  张    睡   床  
再  舒  服 都  觉  得 太  宽 

没  人  分  享      幸   福 就  只  剩    一 半
努 力 把 日 子 填   满
别  来  提 醒     我 多  孤 单

快   乐 剩    一 人  分  享      快   乐 就  只  剩    一 半
喝 一 碗  汤
心  怎  么 都  不 够  暖
这  张    被  单    这  张    睡   床  
再  舒  服 都  觉  得 太  宽
没  人  分  享      幸   福 就  只  剩    一 半
就  算   把 日 子 都  填   满
没  人  知  道  我 多  孤 单

of Luck

This year isn't a good year to start with. This is a CHECKMATE! Sigh.

of Up and Down

Even if I'm down right now, very happy  for them! beats beginner copies which is 655344 copies over 568095! Hope this week can cross million like beginner album. My favourite Aachan no1, Yuko no2 and tomochin no5 appeared in the list of top 10 artist blogger. And and, tomochin will be releasing her 2nd single in april! From now I will be sad since I don't have any music to listen because everything is gone. Sigh. So sad. Data all lost. What a day. You know I won't be happy without their music.

of Love

I composed a song called fall through life. I practice a lot and without hesitation and fear of stage, I played for you that night. You fall, I fall, We both fall. That's when I get to know myself and you better. I will continue writing songs when that time comes. We both know what it means. Friends will never care for you unless you're the special one. When I meet you again, I will dedicate to you another song I'm working on it now with harmonica this time.

AKB48 got manners! ♥♥♥♥♥♥

of Height

momi who has the same height like me! 

don't know when my hair is going to be this long. 

Of Randomness

great teamwork I can see from the documentary. T_T

♥

of depression

Mum says that I have this depression called 忧郁症。I wonder.

Of counting

release on April~ yay!

4 more days for the album and 14 more days for the drama. be patient. be happy till then.

of Majisuka Gakuen 2

weeeee..... Season 2! Because it ended without an ending! Gonna watch this with my sister if it is release on that day. Going to glue myself to akb48 drama! Please have takaachan! I'm dying to see those moment. teehee

of Facts

“people who cheat together, graduate together”

That's it. At least, I tried without lying at myself.

Finding myself isn't that easy after all.

of Flying

They are going to fly like a G6, like a G6. Haha. Will be missing Wern and Turtle. Why both of you go to Australia? Until December so long! Sigh.

of Hypnotize

I was listening to 桜の木になろう whole day. Release on 16th of February which is just around the corner, but I already keep on listening to the video non stop until I fall asleep for 3 hours this afternoon. They are the best. Looking forward for the drama and album too. I cried when I listen and watch the promotional video. It is very touching! Last year was 桜の栞 for マジスカ学園 drama. I really love those two. I can feel that the drama they are acting is going to be greater than マジスカ学園！ 桜の栞 was great where it is sang like a choir. Didn't manage to get myself a mp3 player today. Sigh. Will try to hunt again this week or next week.

of Addiction

This song is so relaxing and touching!

Even if it just 40seconds, i already keep repeating the song 24hour today.

Looking forward for the release of the song.

Planning to buy a sony mp3 player tomorrow if i have the time.

of New Year

Miki's new ball! yay!

Miki is going to Perlis too!

Miki~♥

Happy Chinese New Year~

of Jog

Wake up so early to go Taman Rakyat jog. End up raining while we finish 1 round of walking and rushing to car. I should do more exercise to keep my body healthy! It's just a matter of time after all.

1900

Have you tried this? Please go and try. It is delicious.

You have yours, I have mine

We have different thinking. And I'm afraid that I will leave this world so early than I expected to be. I wonder when will my foot step on there. There. I came across with this line in twitter which is


“F.R.I.E.N.D.S = (F)ight for you. (R)espect you. (I)nvolve you. (E)ncourage you. (N)eed you. (D)eserve you. (S)ave you”


I wonder when will I find these friends of mine. Because it seems that I failed  because of my poor CGPA. Living in my own illusion. You have yours and I have mine.

Bad skill of mine

For certain reason, I think I would like to be closer with Awdrey,Xu Meng and Stefie. I can feel that they are a good person with good personalities- today. My heart skips when Awdrey help me with the tie. It's like how I felt safe having a friend with self-confidence. Don't worry, I won't fall in love with anyone anymore. That the reason, I know how to answer my own question since that day. Probably, I didn't really try to talk to them. If I were a boy, I will make Xu Meng mine. Xu Meng is very pretty! Not forgeting that she has a very good heart! It doesn't matter. Until I reach that point, I will start opening up again.


Just that it is not right now.

of Conversion

Weird, but true. Maybe, I shouldn't. Maybe, I should. No, I shouldn't. It's over. So, I shouldn't.

of Miki's Health

Miki fall sick.

rest well. ♥

of New Drama

ＡＫＢ４８ is going to release another new drama called 桜からの手紙。All of the senbatsu member is acting! I think I will watch it when semester break starts. Hope this drama is as great as マジスカ学園。

ともちん～♥

Bad Year?

Having Ryutaro falling sick, please recover soon! I wanna hear your rare voice from visual kei.
I don't wanna miss someone who can write good lyrics and songs like you because of guillain-barre syndrome. My life wouldn't be that interesting anymore without your song.
That's the source for me to accept the society i'm living in.
God bless you. ♥

Sunny

It was very sunny before it rains this afternoon. It seems like my little brother need some haircut. Well, furcut? Miki! ♥

Standing alone

I wonder why I'm growing to the side not to the top. I think I seriously need some diet. What a day. Didn't manage to do anything except some photography. They will fail me. I don't even know how to make a stop motion video and writing a style sheet. This is so stupid of me. Because life isn't fair that's why I'm not as clever and talented as the others. That's why in this world there's a categories for us to fall- whether it is rich, moderate, poor, slow learner, dumb and so on. For people who never got scolded stupid and dumb from a teacher- they will never understand how it feels. It's not jealousy of me but a journey of a slow learner. That the reason, I tried to learn myself instead of depending on people. I'm already 20 this year. I can't live long on this earth. This is so ridiculous but, this is the truth. People tends to hide it but never can run away from it.

Cross Dream

When I was small, I dreamed to be a Pilot. When I was in secondary, I dreamed to be a novelist that I can express my feeling through a story and my own imagination that i thought of or dream of. When I graduated from school, I went to The One Academy pursuing Multimedia course having interest in video to express my story in my own imagination and story. Now, my imagination is limited. That the reason, it has to be something that everyone like- something that will be judged. I live under the shadow of the poor society. I started writing lyrics that no one will hear. I'm such a loner. But, that's where I can find myself with peace, without anger, without emotion when it's all quiet and nobody around. I have to go through my life anyway. The future is bright- if only I believe it is bright. The love is powerful- if only I believe in it. It depends on me. My believe. Where should I go? As a child since that day, I'm matured thanks to my family. It's not a coincidence- it is a miracle. Even if I need to live with this unhealthy body of mine. Maybe God wants me to experience something my friends will never experience. I wonder if everything looked different the moment I fall asleep later.

Never felt that for so long.

Listening to this album makes my heart rest for that moment until it finished playing. I feel so relaxed now. I like listening to music alone. Not with anyone around me. I really wanted a mp3 player. But, mp3 player isn't as important as my sister's education. I shouldn't step into The One Academy. I made a mistake. As the saying goes, even if you give up, life goes on.
What a life. 

New Look of my baby

My blog finally! So tired. But. I'm happy! Although it might look ugly to you all. I will be updating more starting from now. Hopefully.

my percentage

Scripting = 1/100
html = 2/100
flash = 30/100
photoshop = 50/100
illustrator = 60/100
microsoft word = 70/100
talking = 30/100


↑
that is a lie

i've no talent.

same boat

At least I found someone true to me. We're on the same boat.

though it rains when it doesn't rain.

though it strike when it doesn't sound.

I can only keep it.

So, I'm hiding too much to myself.

This creative industry is so meaningless.

spoiled my face. That's why everyone stay away from me since i joined toa.

before this i was pretty! HAHA!

blaaaaaaa...

this is just a practice to make myself talk alot again.

I called this self entertaiment!

Somewhere

Hope I did a right decision today.

I hope I can understand photography better. T_T

gonna read some book regarding photograpghy again. yada yada yada.. T_T

Anyway, i'm going to spa this friday! ^_^

the places where you can really relax!

looking forward it. yay!

赤い糸

i often see this on ameba adds. Now i knew it ! really like it! T_T

beginner limited version A

Happy New BEGINNER~

Yuko version

mariko version

mayuyu (to) jurina version ^_^

YAY~ ^_^V

don't think i wil be watching it again when school starts. T_TV